Anonymous Poems

Friday, January 20, 2006

She cuts to satisfy

She cuts to satisfy. She cuts to get rid of pain. She cuts to see the blood, knowing that she is releasing some kind of demon. She knows it could kill her, but yet she can’t stop. She is addicted to it. Her friends are concerned, and keep telling her every day that she should stop, but crying is her only answer. Her mama and her daddy don’t know, that the scars are from a razor blade, only her and her friends know.
Her friends have tried telling on her, but she only lied to them, making promises that she’ll stop. Yet every night, she cuts again, and again, and she is breaking those promises she has made. These nightmares keep haunting her. Memories of a happy girl running with her friends outside keep coming back. She sits down and cries some more.
The blood from her cut comes pouring out. She watches it as it slowly runs down her wrist, down to her bed. The drop of blood splashes on the blanket, leaving a blood spot. She smiles to herself, satisfied once again.
Her friends are praying so hard, that she will stop. But yet every day she comes to school with more scars on her arm. She tells them every day that they shouldn’t worry; she is not going to die. But they can’t help to be worried, because cutting will eventually lead to DEATH.
She knows that her cutting is hurting and scaring all of her friends. But like cancer, she can’t seem to get rid of it. It posses her, like a demon, it calls her name every night, and she has to answer, or she feels guilty. The demon has got control of her, and now it WON’T let go, no matter what. She will eventually die, but from this? Is it worth it??
She has already dug a grave deep in her mind. On the tombstone of death she has written Slicer the only name she ever called her self. She lost track of all time, and her other name. She only knows herself as slicer.
Slicer, Slicer, Slicer the demon calls. She looks out her window at the moon above. The blood is coming out, ounces and ounces at a time. There is so much blood; it could write the word cut four times, without running low. Her mother is screaming, but she can only hear the demon calling. She isn’t around in the world; she is lost in a dream. She passes out, and everything leaves her memory.
Friends, family, and the doctor are trying to wake her up. They have got stitches on her cut, 20 to be exact. Her mother is crying, and her daddy is sitting and staring out the window. Her friends are praying, and saying last minute words of kindness. The demon is still calling out to her, and she is not around.
She calls out to her friends and family. I’m back now, I am not dead! Nobody seems to hear, and then she realizes why nobody can hear her. She is not in her body she is a spirit, standing next to her body. The body she deserted for the demon. The demon called cutting.
She takes a final glance around. She stares long and hard at her lost body. She notices the deepness and looks of the scars. They were really deep and she now understood every bodies concern. She died from cutting. She says farewell to everybody, and floats on up to heaven.

Good bye to everybody who cared

By: pShantell Peterson

Meth...

I destroy homes, I tear families apart.
I take your children, and that’s a start.
I’m more valued than diamonds, more precious than gold.
The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold!
If you need me remember, I’m easily found.
I live all around you, in you school and in you town.

I live with the rich, I live with the poor.
I live down the street, or even next door.
I am made in a lab, but not how you think.
I can even be made from under your kitchen sink,
In you child’s closet, or out in the woods:
If this scares you to death – GOOD! IT SHOULD!

I have many names, but there’s one you know best.
I’m sure you’ve heard of me. My name is Crystal Meth.

My power is awesome. Try me, you’ll see.
But if you do, you may never break free.
Just try me once, and I may let you go.
But try me twice, and I’ll be in your soul!
When I posses you, you’ll steal and you’ll lie.
You’ll do anything you have to, just to get high.
The crimes you’ll commit for my narcotic charms,
Will be worth the pleasure you feel in your arms.

You will lie to your Mother and steal from your Dad.
When you feel tears, you may feel sad!
Just forget you morals, and forget how you were raised:
I will be you conscious, I will teach you my ways.
I take kids from their parents, and parents from the kids.
I take people from GOD, and I even separate friends.

I will take everything from you,
Your looks and your pride.
I will always be by your side.
You will give me everything –
Your family, your home, your money, your friends:
Then you will be ALONE!

I’ll take and I’ll take, till you have not more to give.
When I finish with you, you’ll be lucky to live!
If you should try me – Be Warned – this is not a game!
If given the chance, I will drive you insane.
I will ravage your body, I will control you mind!
I will own you completely: Heart, Soul and Mind!
The nightmares I will give you, while you’re lying in bed.
My voice you will hear from inside your head.
The sweats, the shakes the visions you’ll see.
I want you to know – these are all gifts from me!
By then it’s too late; you’ll know in you heart
That you are mine, we never shall part.
You’ll regret that you tried me (they always do),
But you came to me, not it to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told.
But you challenged my power, you chose to be bold.
You could have said, “NO” and just walked away,
If you could live that day over, what would you say?

My power is awesome, as I told you before.
I can take a nun and make her a whore.
I will be your master and you’ll be my slave.
I will even help take you to your grave.
Now that you’ve met me, what will you do?
Will you try me or not? It’s all up to you!
I can show you more good times than words can tell,
Come hold my hand… let me lead you to HELL!

Blood and Pain

In this world it spins and it twirls.
There is blood and pain.
Were every day you life is in vain.
And while you’re waiting on the block,
you look over and see someone got shot.
After that your live goes down hill.
Then while you’re in school,
and your friend gets killed.
Then you say his death won’t be in vain.
Then you’re covered in blood and you feel pain.

By: Joe Schuety

Thoughts

She knows they like her, a little more than they should.
But why does she stay? Does she need to be known, or does she need to be loved?
You see the way they look at her-like she’s a god. Beautiful, yet so powerful.
And the way she looks at them, heartless, yet innocent; weak, yet strong; loved, and yet lonely. The smallest speck of hate left on her face, hidden by a smile!
Yet a sparkle of lust stays in her eye. Lust love, friendship, and joy!
Her sadness is so contained, so deeply, or is this not true?
Is she so powerful that the innocents she tried to create for herself, all just game?
Can she make some think one thing, and others another? Some think not-like I said!
Everything seems perfect. Doesn’t it? Well I may never know. Only a small few get the chance. And they hold the secrets dearer than their lives.
So now I ask again, “Is she really that powerful? Is she really all that great?”

By: Lindsey Thotland

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Last night I went to the store
I needed some stuff, I thought.
I ended up with more razor blades
In addition to normal things I bought.

I stood in front of the display
Rows and rows of Gillette
Debating o'er the 5 or ten pack
Which one shall I get?

I actually stand there thinking
How many will I need?
Is five enough before I'll stop
Needing to see myself bleed?

In this store, the razor blades
Are behind a little plastic door
That emits a loud squeal when you open it
So everyone sees you for sure.

Every now and then I imagine
That everyone in the store knows
That I really don't use them for shaving
And they're whispering 'oh, there that nutty one goes'.

When I need to buy tape and gauze
And ointment to handle the sore
I am afraid they will figure the whole thing out
So I buy those at a different store.

Its so ironic, these gyrations I go thru
To hurt myself again.
Will I ever stop for good?
Is is possible? If so, when?...

Thursday, January 19, 2006

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Too many tears
Have I shed in my past
I've none left to cry
I am empty at last
All I can do now is feel anger and self-hatred
There is nothing left to live for
With angry thoughts in my head
I have slits on my wrists
And soon shall be dead
Slowly slide into the mist
My soul shall be burned
My heart used as coal
My lesson has yet to be learned
So here I lay
Dead as a nail
My anger has left me
And on you it shall hail

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Silence
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin

Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain

Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain

Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin

Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Find the right guy.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when
you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding
you of how much he cares
about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and
says,".....that's her."