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I know you can hear me. I can see you crying every night, when I sleep. I never have any nightmares, I just have fantasies. Wishing you were here, I can’t take this any more. I sit here every night and cry. Nobody knows what goes on inside. It’s always raining without you here. Time passes slowly, and I wish I can travel back into it. I don’t want anything to change I want everything to be normal again. Since you left, everything has changed, and I’m not normal any more. The pain I have has been cause by you, and only you. My friends try to comfort me, but they can’t. Only if you come back, I’ll be comforted. The knife has been picked up by me, because of you.
I know you can hear and see me still. I call out into the black of the night, every night hoping you would hear me. My heart is still after you, and just you. Does that mean anything to you? Stars fall every night, and I always make a wish. I wish for you to hold me in your arms once again. As the moon rises, I wish to dance under it with you. As the sun rises, I realize that time is still passing without you here. Suicide has called, and I have so far ignored it. Soon I will answer it, if I never see you again. I need you now more than ever, and you are not here. The scars of my life are caused by you, and they will now never go away. Cutting has helped me so far, and I hope you understand why.
I want to feel the rush of the ocean and I want to sit with you on the moon. I know this could never happen, but I still wish. God is holding me here on earth, for one reason, and I still haven’t found it yet. I keep walking along a path that is hidden by trees and bushes. I keep following it although it is winding and twisting for what seems like forever. Someday I’ll get to the end, and I just can’t wait to see what is waiting for me. I wonder yet if it will be you, holding out your arms for me to jump in. I wonder if my friends will once again welcome me.
I am so full of sin, and yet I’m forgiven. I should have died so long ago, but that’s why Jesus died. So I wouldn’t have to. I am so full of selfishness, but what I want, I can’t control. I’m so full of pain, but nobody except you can change that. So please come back and help me. I am always in this corner, wasting my tears, just for you. I know I have been bad, but I want you to forgive me. I know that I deserved the beatings you gave me, because I let you down. I know God will guide you back to me, because it is meant between us. I know that I am being led into something even greater then the two of us. The fire jumps and bubbles below me. The fantasy is still above me. I know that peace and quiet can be only above, and that anguish is only below. The master of lies, and pain is calling on me, but the master of love and happiness is shouting even louder. I know I should go after the master of love, but somehow I am being dragged into the master of lies. Which should I believe?
I’m still on my bed, sleeping in a dream of fairy tales. I am still swimming with mermaids, and I’m still riding unicorns. Each night I get farther into the fairy tale. There is one thing missing and that is you. I keep searching everywhere, but I just can’t find you. I finally rest beside the ocean, and watch dolphins jump into the air. I cry out so load and piercing that even the trees turned and looked at me. I am finally near the moon, and I finally taste the stars. I am finally letting go of you, and finding happiness once again. I am finally riding the moon, and flying through space. I am finally at the end of this path, and what I found I’ll never forget. Hell is finally getting farther away from me, and Heaven is finally greeting me. You were once a big part of my life, but now I let you go forever. I watched you falling below me, and I let go of your hand. I have cried the last of my tears over you. The last thing I want to say before I close the door is this, Goodbye forever.
The door is now closed, and I am not looking back. I locked it with heavy locks that can’t be broken. I can never reach you again, and I can’t ever reach you. Peace has finally found me, and I finally let go of pain. I now no longer can feel pain, but only happiness. I still ride the moon and still taste the stars. I still wish, but not about you. You are now no longer in my life.
Sorry I wasted my tears over you. Sorry all thoes years I was chasing invisible dreams. Sorry I felt so bad. Sorry that I can now be in happiness, but good bye my once true love.
By: Pshantell Peterson
I know you can hear and see me still. I call out into the black of the night, every night hoping you would hear me. My heart is still after you, and just you. Does that mean anything to you? Stars fall every night, and I always make a wish. I wish for you to hold me in your arms once again. As the moon rises, I wish to dance under it with you. As the sun rises, I realize that time is still passing without you here. Suicide has called, and I have so far ignored it. Soon I will answer it, if I never see you again. I need you now more than ever, and you are not here. The scars of my life are caused by you, and they will now never go away. Cutting has helped me so far, and I hope you understand why.
I want to feel the rush of the ocean and I want to sit with you on the moon. I know this could never happen, but I still wish. God is holding me here on earth, for one reason, and I still haven’t found it yet. I keep walking along a path that is hidden by trees and bushes. I keep following it although it is winding and twisting for what seems like forever. Someday I’ll get to the end, and I just can’t wait to see what is waiting for me. I wonder yet if it will be you, holding out your arms for me to jump in. I wonder if my friends will once again welcome me.
I am so full of sin, and yet I’m forgiven. I should have died so long ago, but that’s why Jesus died. So I wouldn’t have to. I am so full of selfishness, but what I want, I can’t control. I’m so full of pain, but nobody except you can change that. So please come back and help me. I am always in this corner, wasting my tears, just for you. I know I have been bad, but I want you to forgive me. I know that I deserved the beatings you gave me, because I let you down. I know God will guide you back to me, because it is meant between us. I know that I am being led into something even greater then the two of us. The fire jumps and bubbles below me. The fantasy is still above me. I know that peace and quiet can be only above, and that anguish is only below. The master of lies, and pain is calling on me, but the master of love and happiness is shouting even louder. I know I should go after the master of love, but somehow I am being dragged into the master of lies. Which should I believe?
I’m still on my bed, sleeping in a dream of fairy tales. I am still swimming with mermaids, and I’m still riding unicorns. Each night I get farther into the fairy tale. There is one thing missing and that is you. I keep searching everywhere, but I just can’t find you. I finally rest beside the ocean, and watch dolphins jump into the air. I cry out so load and piercing that even the trees turned and looked at me. I am finally near the moon, and I finally taste the stars. I am finally letting go of you, and finding happiness once again. I am finally riding the moon, and flying through space. I am finally at the end of this path, and what I found I’ll never forget. Hell is finally getting farther away from me, and Heaven is finally greeting me. You were once a big part of my life, but now I let you go forever. I watched you falling below me, and I let go of your hand. I have cried the last of my tears over you. The last thing I want to say before I close the door is this, Goodbye forever.
The door is now closed, and I am not looking back. I locked it with heavy locks that can’t be broken. I can never reach you again, and I can’t ever reach you. Peace has finally found me, and I finally let go of pain. I now no longer can feel pain, but only happiness. I still ride the moon and still taste the stars. I still wish, but not about you. You are now no longer in my life.
Sorry I wasted my tears over you. Sorry all thoes years I was chasing invisible dreams. Sorry I felt so bad. Sorry that I can now be in happiness, but good bye my once true love.
By: Pshantell Peterson
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